I originally thought this post would begin with “I am a HUGE failure.”
Over the last two weeks, my blogging has been sporadic at best. The Christmas season truly is the busiest time of the year! The to-do list lengthens and the obligations/holiday gatherings/travel plans pile on.
In the midst of this, my blog has fallen to the wayside. I faithfully posted outfits each day in “Wear,” but other than that, the blog often sat idle.
The recovering perfectionist in me relapsed and I felt like a blogger dud. I started this thinking I’d post every day! Why am I not able to keep up!? What is wrong with me!? Why can’t I handle this!?
Luckily, I had a revelation. A better description is actually that I got smacked in the face with reality. But whatever.
My women’s bible study is currently reading a book by Emily Freeman called Grace for the Good Girl (find on Amazon here.) One chapter talks about when Martha, a woman in the Bible who is much like me and tried to do every. single. thing. right. all. the. time, is brought to reality by Jesus.
“You are worried and bothered about so many things, but only one thing is necessary.” [Luke 10:41-42 NASB]
Hmm. Talk about reality smacking me square in the face.
My blog isn’t perfect. I can’t post every day and keep my sanity, particulary at this time of year. And there are so many things happening in both work and life that it’s easy to quickly feel overwhelmed with millions of details.
But I cannot be worried and bothered about all of these things. I need to do what I can, and let go when it gets to be too much.
I started this blog as a place to show how to simplify the chaos that life can become. It’s all about finding a balance. I need to take my own advice and simplify my blogging expectations to find a reasonable balance.
Posting outfits daily is something I can handle. Posting about other topics is something I can handle…sometimes. My priority will always be my marriage, relationships, and experiences. I refuse to let those suffer for the sake of doing a million other things because I think I have to or I’m a failure. I define my own success. I define where my balance is.
I choose JOY over perfection.
So I’m not, in fact, a “huge failure” like I thought. I’m just a recovering perfectionist and I don’t expect this to be my relapse. I just keep on trying to find that place where life is as simple and joyful and I enjoy it to the max.
Happy Tuesday!!
***
Today’s outfit! Details can be found in “Wear“
Sweater: Express
Khakis: Maurices
Ballet Flats: Kohls
Bangle Set: Ruche
Necklace: Bluetique
simplify the chaos 